Today is the first day, that begins the days ahead I will have to endure without her. I can't believe I let her go, even though I can do nothing about it, I feel as if I should have just stolen her. Sometimes these things happen and test you for how much you truly love the other person, perhaps that is what I am going through.
Still, even though I know she is coming back and this is just another part of life, it doesn't make anything easier. I have never felt this much emotion in my life, never screamed so loud at nothing only to have tears come out. Yelling at someone else in kendo, or just in life is usually done and I feel anger and strong. But today, having her leave made every attempt at feeling strong so hard. But it does having tears mean I am weak? I feel like, this love, our love is so strong. It is strong enough to bind us together even if we are in different continents, nothing can tear us apart.
I know only one person reads this, and thank you so much for being there whenever. Sorry if in the future days you'll probably see a very sad looking Jason, but one with that date in mind. March 21, 2008. Tonight is the 2 month as well =.)
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You know I'm always there for you and I don't flake out cause I hate it when people do it to me. I hope you're feeling better! Call me anytime if you need me k? :] She will be back in no time and it will be even better when you guys are together again, I promise.
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