The little glimpse I get of your smile
Whether it has been near or far
Real or fake
In person or through a picture
It has always given me a sense of happiness inside
Although you may never care for me ever again
One thing you've left with me that I'll always be thankful for
Are the thoughts of those happy moments I spent with you
No matter what
These memories
As hard as I may try
Will never disappear
Ever glimpse
Every mention
Every thought of you
My heart skips a beat no matter what
Friday, February 22, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Stff
The sun still shines
The rain still falls
Everything here still flows as it always has
But that little rock that moved out of the way of the rushing water
Let everything flow past in beautiful motion
The drowning marsh filled with life
Is tragically overflown
But soon the seeds of the new season bloom
The feeling returns and grows again
And the sun shining, rain falling, wind blowing, and love flowing will bring everything back together
The rain still falls
Everything here still flows as it always has
But that little rock that moved out of the way of the rushing water
Let everything flow past in beautiful motion
The drowning marsh filled with life
Is tragically overflown
But soon the seeds of the new season bloom
The feeling returns and grows again
And the sun shining, rain falling, wind blowing, and love flowing will bring everything back together
Monday, February 4, 2008
clouds in the sky
the suns light shines brightly
beaming hope and a joy into our hearts
like the clouds in the sky you pretend
the sun is still there, your feelings still there too
but the clouds turn the sky grey
with sorrow, loneliness, heartache
rain drops fall like tears from the heavens
splashing down on these little puddles
beauty hides behind everything
a ray of sunshine pokes through
another joy filled day is only on the horizon
rain drops bring life to everything
the cool breeze blows by and reminds us
that a warm day is to be treasured when there
a day too hot
reminds us that the cold is not bad
and that everything is there for a reason
beaming hope and a joy into our hearts
like the clouds in the sky you pretend
the sun is still there, your feelings still there too
but the clouds turn the sky grey
with sorrow, loneliness, heartache
rain drops fall like tears from the heavens
splashing down on these little puddles
beauty hides behind everything
a ray of sunshine pokes through
another joy filled day is only on the horizon
rain drops bring life to everything
the cool breeze blows by and reminds us
that a warm day is to be treasured when there
a day too hot
reminds us that the cold is not bad
and that everything is there for a reason
The words from me.
Tears fall like cherry blossoms
floating down gracefully
in sorrow of their leaving this world
On the floor they gather and soon disappear
only there for a few moments
showing us their beauty
grazing our skin with their light touch
delighting our senses with their sweet scent
filling our hearts with joy with their presence
they leave us sad in their leaving
awaiting their return another year goes by
happiness and love will always come back
to those willing to wait
willing to cherish it when it is there
floating down gracefully
in sorrow of their leaving this world
On the floor they gather and soon disappear
only there for a few moments
showing us their beauty
grazing our skin with their light touch
delighting our senses with their sweet scent
filling our hearts with joy with their presence
they leave us sad in their leaving
awaiting their return another year goes by
happiness and love will always come back
to those willing to wait
willing to cherish it when it is there
Songz
I listen to these songs, and they make me have feelings that I would otherwise not have. Maybe they make things easier, they soothe my heart in a way nothing else can. The beat just goes on and on, a song repeating over and over to make me feel a temporary feeling of happiness. I just know that someday I'll look back to these songs again, to find my little corner of happiness.
Happiness comes and goes, be happy when it is there, otherwise it's not happiness. Don't be sad when sadness comes, because then it wouldn't be sadness. Think about everyone, not just someone, when you have a feeling. Everyone cares about you, everyone loves you.
Time still goes by slowly, but slowly it gets faster and faster and the days just go by. These songs sing to me everyday, and help me get by as slow or as fast as I want them to. Soon that day will come, soon another day will come, and soon my life will start anew.
Happiness comes and goes, be happy when it is there, otherwise it's not happiness. Don't be sad when sadness comes, because then it wouldn't be sadness. Think about everyone, not just someone, when you have a feeling. Everyone cares about you, everyone loves you.
Time still goes by slowly, but slowly it gets faster and faster and the days just go by. These songs sing to me everyday, and help me get by as slow or as fast as I want them to. Soon that day will come, soon another day will come, and soon my life will start anew.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
When I'm gone
Not when I'm gone, but when you leave me am I leaving you too? What does it mean to be away from someone, when normally if someone goes away you don't really miss them. How should I feel when a friend goes away for a long time, even if I see them almost everyday. I don't feel the same when I am away from her. I feel the worst pain in my heart when I can't see her, can't talk to her.
This is especially bad when she goes to check things, but she doesn't check my messages. My messages of apologies, of how I feel, of my caring feelings, of me... What do I do? The one I love doesn't want to hear from me, she doesn't show her true feelings.
I know she is burning inside, I know her heart is broken now. She doesn't show it, she acts happy. It's easy to act online, when no one can see your face, hear your voice, feel you tremble when you lie about being happy.
I am too much of a fool, anyone can lie to me and I would believe them. I am too gullible, did I really believe she was happy to let me go? That I let her go? She wasn't, who would be so willing to let go of the one they love in so little time. So much time we had together, all of it sweet and loving. It's impossible for her to forget, to just throw away that feeling. You can't throw away those feelings of love just like that, they stick to you like a deep scar on your body. It will always be there, you will always be reminded of something from looking at it.
I know now I should never have felt like she was not giving me enough time alone, because now she is giving me all the time alone. I shouldn't have thought, maybe its ok she is gonna be gone. Because now its the worst thing that she is not here. My heart, my body, my tears fall down everyday for her.
Did I truly make you happy? Was I really the only one who made you happy in your life? Was I the only one to show you love? You were the only one who made me cry tears of joy, tears of pain, tears of sorrow, tears of love. The only person in this world, who would show an insignificant little boy like me true love. The only one, who gave me all the attention, all of your heart, all of your love, all of you. You were the other half of me, are you still that other half? I feel like half of me is gone.
I remember all the times I made you sad, ALL OF THEM. I think about them, I think about how I should have never done those things. I should have put you first, nothing matters more than you to me, because you are me. Will you ever see this? Will we ever see... this love again..
This is especially bad when she goes to check things, but she doesn't check my messages. My messages of apologies, of how I feel, of my caring feelings, of me... What do I do? The one I love doesn't want to hear from me, she doesn't show her true feelings.
I know she is burning inside, I know her heart is broken now. She doesn't show it, she acts happy. It's easy to act online, when no one can see your face, hear your voice, feel you tremble when you lie about being happy.
I am too much of a fool, anyone can lie to me and I would believe them. I am too gullible, did I really believe she was happy to let me go? That I let her go? She wasn't, who would be so willing to let go of the one they love in so little time. So much time we had together, all of it sweet and loving. It's impossible for her to forget, to just throw away that feeling. You can't throw away those feelings of love just like that, they stick to you like a deep scar on your body. It will always be there, you will always be reminded of something from looking at it.
I know now I should never have felt like she was not giving me enough time alone, because now she is giving me all the time alone. I shouldn't have thought, maybe its ok she is gonna be gone. Because now its the worst thing that she is not here. My heart, my body, my tears fall down everyday for her.
Did I truly make you happy? Was I really the only one who made you happy in your life? Was I the only one to show you love? You were the only one who made me cry tears of joy, tears of pain, tears of sorrow, tears of love. The only person in this world, who would show an insignificant little boy like me true love. The only one, who gave me all the attention, all of your heart, all of your love, all of you. You were the other half of me, are you still that other half? I feel like half of me is gone.
I remember all the times I made you sad, ALL OF THEM. I think about them, I think about how I should have never done those things. I should have put you first, nothing matters more than you to me, because you are me. Will you ever see this? Will we ever see... this love again..
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