Equations

We begin this paper by asking the reader to consider the following equation:

From this equation we know that the strain of an object equals the change in length over the original length. Therefore if we can measure the differences we can always calculate these values. Before we move one we present another equation you must know.

Now clearly this equation does not make any sense whatsoever due to the fact that I am using it as a demonstration of the power of Math 5.0 program in creating equations. What I am not showing is my general knowledge of a good equation that would benefit from using Math 5.0 as opposed to the generic word file. Why can I not do this? Mainly because my mind is bleeding and my heart is on fire waiting for someone to talk to me since I am lonely out of my mind. I have all my friends but yet the memories of days past for those two months surpass everything else. WHAT???

Today I just spent the whole day basically doing nothing, now I just installed Microsoft Word so I can do my paper. What a paper to do, when all I can think about is her, and how much I wish I would rather be in a cave with her, than in the clouds without her. I have dreams, everyday. The dreams are not true, bet they just tease me of what I could have. But then every once in awhile I realize, dreams are just dreams. But from what I have gone through, it seems dreams do come true, and they make your life so much better. Dream on everyone, the hope is what keeps you going.

I finish with another equation:

Time

It's been 9 days, and a few days since actually getting to talk. Now everything seems so bleak and harder to deal with sort of. Just knowing I could talk and actually talking were comforting to me, but now that it is not there I know how much I need it. I guess it is always true you never know the value of something till you lose it, I always thought about it but never thought it would feel like this.

Such a busy week, I just realized I do have a lot of classes to deal with and because of this a lot of homework and projects to deal with. I didn't realize that I would have a senior project as well as a engineering design project with Intel that would span two quarters. I somehow feel like this quarter is going to be the most challenging. Having to deal with loss and other things doesn't make things any easier, especially when it is on my mind almost 24/7.

Sorry I haven't been updating either, my computer broke down just two days ago but that is no excuse for the other days. The other days I have been out trying to keep my mind from being depressed. I feel very lost now, in terms of life and just school, events, people and such... I need a day where I don't do anything at all, I really haven't had one of those in awhile.

Loss

Today is the first day, that begins the days ahead I will have to endure without her. I can't believe I let her go, even though I can do nothing about it, I feel as if I should have just stolen her. Sometimes these things happen and test you for how much you truly love the other person, perhaps that is what I am going through.

Still, even though I know she is coming back and this is just another part of life, it doesn't make anything easier. I have never felt this much emotion in my life, never screamed so loud at nothing only to have tears come out. Yelling at someone else in kendo, or just in life is usually done and I feel anger and strong. But today, having her leave made every attempt at feeling strong so hard. But it does having tears mean I am weak? I feel like, this love, our love is so strong. It is strong enough to bind us together even if we are in different continents, nothing can tear us apart.

I know only one person reads this, and thank you so much for being there whenever. Sorry if in the future days you'll probably see a very sad looking Jason, but one with that date in mind. March 21, 2008. Tonight is the 2 month as well =.)

First Week

I have landed, and the scouting mission is complete and now I embark upon the mission to colonize and conquer this planet known as school. So far the mission has gone smoothly, I have analyzed data from every species I have encountered, also known as class.

The mission is going smoothly because I am with my partner in the mission, and she is helping and supporting me every step of the way =).

To the reader, thank you for being there for me, and I hope you are not annoyed with people anymore hehe. GOOD LUCK!!